Well, you should have. That would've been funny. A lot of the girls in the group punch the guys in the group over small infractions (on like the arm or something, though. Not in the face.) Come to think of it, we're actually a kind rowdy group. I remember I was my friend's "Drinking buddy" at this 25th year reunion thing for a local bar (I know you don't like drinking, but bear with me here.) As we were walking back to the car, we decided we "had to fight," and we kept trying to grab at and push each other over. His wife kept trying to break us up, and call us "retarded" or whatever. He actually succeeded in knocking me over and ripping a button off my shirt. I just thought the whole thing was funny, and I think he did, too. See, so violence is funny!
One leg shorter than the other, eh? It's probably good that you found out about this early; my friend's mother has one shorter leg too, but she didn't find out about it until recently. Apparently, she has had a lot of back problems because of it.

Nah nah, I love my grandpa. I'm just sad that he's getting old(er; he's always been old since I've been alive) now, and doesn't really communicate as much as before. But yeah, it's kinda odd, isn't it? I never met my father's parents. His father died when he was five, and his mother died in like the 60's or 70's, I think. I kind of grew up taking for granted only have one set of grandparents; not knowing my grandparents on my father's side hasn't ever really occured to me until reccently, and I kind of wonder what they were like. My grandmother looks rather stern in most the pictures I've seen (although they generally didn't smile back then for pictures. It was also undoubtedly hard to lose her husband at such a young age, although she had the older kids to help with the younger ones, I'd imagine.)

Y'know, I generally don't think of it as a "why was I ever friends with that person?" so much as I think "that person has changed," or "that person wasn't as they seemed before." There have been a lot of people who have gotten very jaded, sarcastic, rude, and/or cynical since I first knew them. There's a song by Reel Big Fish that goes, "It's the new, it's the new, new version of you. If there's anything I'd like to do it's KILL the new version of you." That song generally has my sentiments on those people down: they think they're improving themselves as people, when really, they're just becoming dicks. "If the world is full of dicks, I should be a **** too, right?"

You may be correct about that self-fulfilling proficy with some people. Although the person I know has every reason to be happy; he's married, has children, has a decent job, etc. But sometimes, he'd find himself feeling upset for no real reason at all. Depression actually runs in my family, although I don't really think I have it. There have been times when I have felt down on myself, but never really horribly down on myself, generally I've had a reason, and I've never thought that killing myself was a good way to deal with my problems (though I'd imagine not all of those who are depressed are suicidal.) I must be honest; I feel bad for the train conductor, but I'm not really angry for the guy who took his life, either. Mostly because that cost him his life. It doesn't make a difference to him how many people are sad about his death, regardless of what comes after death. He made a lasting choice, and he's gone now. If I knew him, I'd probably be sad about him, but mostly, I wonder why. What made him come to this decision? I know of a similar incident, involving my cousin: he was driving along, when someone jumped out in front of his car. He went to the hospital, not because of physical injuries, but psychological ones. He saw the person's eyes when he hit the car. It freaked him out pretty good, I think.

I saw your thread you started. In particular, it is about smart people turning to drugs because they are depressed about the state of the world, correct? I don't think that all smart people turn to drugs. I think Che's description is a pretty good one; we're surprised when a smart person makes a poor decision. They're still human, even if they are rather smart. They're inclined to make the same bad decisions that any other person in the world would make, because we are all made corrupt by the world, I think. The more you find out about it, the more it corrupts you. Sorry for that dismal observation, but that is how I feel on the matter.

...so have a good day Heh... Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

Naaah~ Of course I didn't punch my boyfriend! XD I was a bit angry at him, but that wasn't a big deal either. (Besides, the day after my birthday he broke up with me x3~ So I didn't have a reason to be angry anymore... I was just sad! XD")
Nope, no serious problems. Just having a problem with my balance... somehow. The doctor talked so fast I don't really know what he told me. xD It's just that... my left leg seems to be shorter than the right one. ôo" I think it was something like that. This leads to some kind of inbalance. .-." (At least that's what my sister began calling it - and I sticked to it immediately xD)

Please don't get this wrong but.. you should at least be happy that you have a grandpa. xD" I won't weep over something unchangable, but I never met any of my grandpas. ^^" The father of my mother distanced himself from our family when I was born (he didn't want to have four grandchildren it seems xD"). The father of my father died when he was young.... Hm, sounds sad, but it wasn't that sad, really. You grow used to such things. .-." But when my mother's father died last year I was first totally sad because I knew then that I'd never met any of my grandpas. ^^"

> You can't ignore her, and you can't demod or get rid of her, eh?
I CAN ignore her, if I want. But the truth is: I am NOT ALLOWED to ignore her. That's far worse! XD" I can't demod her, because the admins of the forum don't see any problems with her. And getting rid of her... that's why I talk to YOU, my dear. You're Corporal Punishment, aren't you?
Hm, I really have to think about that... But I guess I know a good example. You remember the guy I hate but don't know why? One of my dearest friends was (I don't think he is anymore, at least ^^") friends with him, even after I began hating him. I just couldn't understand why this friend of mine liked that stupid guy. ._."" It's not that I told him "How can you be friends with THAT guy????" - we didn't talk about him at all. But I THOUGHT that question (with the 4 question marks XD).
But, normally, it's that way: Freya's just broken up with a friend and asks herself: "Why the heck did I even befriend that person?!" XD Like the friend of the thread I made a while ago. ^^"

Today I shouted at my mother because of that suicide guy... Can you imagine that they really wrote a long article about how sad all of Germany was that he died???? CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT????? There is a certain person I fell sad for: That's the person who was driving that damn train when that bastard threw himself in front of it! Sadly, the newspapers only see this poor, pooooor trainer who ruined the lifes of many. (He had a wife and a ~6 months old baby!!!!) He's left his family behind! He's ruined the life of an engine driver! And that's what he gets: He becomes famous - even people who aren't interested in soccer AT ALL know him! -.-
Okay, Freya, calm down, calm down.... *draws a deep breath* Okay... There still is one positive aspect. They claim he's had a depression. So know the whole country will probably recognize that it really IS the most common illness in this damn country. <.<" (I know it exists - but I doubt that it is that widespread. Some people who are happy throughout their life sometimes claim they are depressed, just because they happen to have one day in a year on which they're not feeling well. -_-" I just hate that people think that they're depressed. Mostly because if they THINK they are, they'll surely soon be. Self-fulfilling prophecy and stuff. <.<")

Hehe, that's no problem, my dear. x3"" I've decided to record an other song, too. I sang Toki no Hourousha quite a lot but I still think it sounds awful. But I'll probably do any other FF song so that you know the song. x3"

So~ Now I'll probably search for a discussion in the ID forum... There is a certain topic I'd like to talk about... << >>

Heh heh. You should tell me your birthday, so I can... I dunno. But if I'm over there for over a year, it is sure to pass at least once That sounds awesome, what your boyfriend did. I'll bet you gave him heck over that, eh? Haha. Did ya punch him? And having a problem, eh? I hope it isn't anything serious, ma'am. I will keep that in mind in my prayers. I went ice skating today, and fell down several times, including once when I fell with my leg bent underneath me. Now my knee is sore. I'm gonna make it heal fast, though! It's gonna work!

I wish your father was my grandpa! ...nah, my Grandpa is awesome. Although he's old and doesn't hear very well anymore. Recently, I asked him a question, and he responded by giving me a high five. It in no way answered my question. I was like "okay... heh." But yeah. Your father sounds like a good grandpa. My dad probably is too. He's got the whole giving in to crying grandchildren thing down.

You can't ignore her, and you can't demod or get rid of her, eh? Well, what are you supposed to do? Be like, "Okay, that sucks. I'm not happy that you shared that with me, or are talking to me at all" to that girl? And they don't think that she sucks. That sounds sounds like a common problem in the world; people don't realize or care that their employees/friends suck, and continue to employ them/be their friend. Do you ever see that? Like, a really cool person is friends with a dickhead, and you don't know why? It's like, "They're nice to me, so therefore, I don't care how they treat anyone else."

Suicide, eh? ...I dunno. I know that those people probably are not in their right minds when they do it. He probably wasn't even thinking about how it would effect the train's conductor or passengers. Then again, what do you say to those people who had to witness it? It's like the person didn't care about anyone else, which is selfish. And it's selfish in the fact that these people are probably leaving others behind to deal with their decision and loss. But someone I know has tried to commit suicide a few times. He sees a psychiatrist now, and has meds to keep him regular now, and he feels bad about what he put the rest of us through. And the ways he tried to do it weren't very effective: starving himself, and alcohol poisoning (during which he confessed to his wife he was doing it.) Depression is real. I will say that.

You do whatever you feel like to help me, ma'am. I will appreciate as much or as little as you decide to do. Speaking of mics, someday, I will sing and record you a song, ha. I was thinking about doing something other than Dream Theater though, if that's okay; something I know better.

Yeah, I've seen it a bit more recent than you; watched it the first time in December 07, and the second time like in February or March of this year (that was actually the first time I watched the whole series through.) The majority of it isn't really all that nice to remember, anyway, so don't feel too bad if you don't, heh.

Film the shooting, eh? If we had a second camera, we might be able to do that, but I don't think we do. There would also need to be someone else to operate that second camera, heh. I don't think it would really be all as exciting as you might think it would be. Glad you like my roll, though! I need to study it more... I've only looked at it one day this past week. I looked it over a number of times that day, but that won't be good enough. Luckily, we aren't filming until next weekend after all, anyway; the actor that couldn't do it Saturday can't do it at all this week. So yay for my slacking not doing me in!

Have a good week at school, ma'am! Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

I guess I won't be annoyed with you if you forget something I told you. Y'know, I like to talk quite much, so I won't even know what I've told you. xD Today I even said to my mother: "Wait - have I even told you that?!" XD" I had to go to a doctor on Wednesday and he told me many things about my.. erm, let's just call it problem. xD" And I forgot to tell my mother parts of it. ^^" So I told her today and wasn't sure which parts I told her and which I forgot. ^^"""
But I'd probably get annoyed if you ever forgot my birthday. *lol* Just kidding. ^^ My ex-boyfriend had sent me a message at exactly midnight on my birthday - but it wasn't some "happy birthday"-message... he just wanted to tell me what he had been doing that night! XD I first got mad at him, but now I find it funny. xD

Hehe, I can't wait to have my parents taking care of cute little babies x3~ My father'll probably be a good grandpa, he really enjoys telling fantasy stories. ^^ He did that at lot when we were younger - and most times we actually believed in every word he'd said. xD"

Hehehe, I'd really like to do that. ;3 My best friend would probably cheer for me if I did. xD But I can't. I know that the admins wouldn't do much about it, but they would probably (again) try to tell me what is right and what is wrong. *rolls eyes* It was sooo~ annoying when they wanted to tell me that I just can't ignore a person I dislike ~..~ Sooo~ annoying... as if they were my parents. (If they were my parents I'd probably had shot myself. <_<""")

Besides, may I ask a question about moral and stuff?
A few days (maybe even a week) ago, a famous (I didn't know him, Mom didn't know him either, but he seemed to be famous xD") soccer trainer commited suicide. But no, he didn't do it at home. He killed himself by jumping in front of a train. (Is there any better description of that? xD") What do you think about such people?

Well, the basics of German are quite easy. .-. Just switch an "e" to an "a" and you know how to say "hello" in German. xD
In my phonetics & phonology course at university I'm learning how to transcribe words. :3 Then I could write it down for you so that you know how to pronounce the words. ^^ Or I could make an audio file for you... If my microphone ever works again. <..<"

I don't remember if the Evangelion movies bothered me. .-." I can't remember anything about them at all. XD" I just know that many people died, Asuka was Berserker and Shinji and Misato kissed. Yay, I've such a great memory. <.<" Did I mention I saw the movies a few... many years ago? XD"
Besides, "Come, Sweet Death" is the correct translation. How did you know? ^^

Hehe, after reading through the script a bit I felt a bit sad. Mostly because I know that the movie my friend and I are shooting isn't as great as your brother's. xD" Then, because the roles are sooo~ great! >_< I wanted to have a psycho in my movie, too, but my friend didn't want one. XD" I love the role of Christian! <3 And I'd really like to see the movie *_* And how you shoot the movie. *_* Can you film the filming for me, please? XD

See, I remember a lot of things, but then I won't remember something that you actually want me to remember, some day. And then you'll be annoyed with me, haha. Hm... have I offed her? We'll just have to wait and see...

Maybe your dad is like a traveling salesman, or something. Goes around and gives his sales pitch, and whatnot. My father is also retired. He has actually been retired since like 2000, I think. My mom hasn't worked for years, either. They're full time grandparents, I think, and like to babysit my sister's children a lot (and my brother's, when the chance arises.) There were a few times when it was very funny to watch my father "trying" to take care of a baby; getting frustrated and yelling to my mom. "Jaw! He's doin' somethin'!" Your mother sounds like an invaluable source of help. *thumbs up*

You should make an executive decision and just ban that guy. Be like, "I'm tired of 'im. He smells funny. And he's stupid.What, you wanna fight about it?!" when the other mods ask about it.

Heh. I think you actually just learned an incorrect term that my group likes to use a lot. See, there was this one time when my current roommate was fasting, and we went to this campsite where this other friend's family and friends were staying. When he got there, some of the women there somehow found out and made him eat. Someone said that he got "mothered." I thought it was funny.
I would like it if you tought me some German, ma'am. I asked my friend to teach me some, and she was like, "Like what?" And I was like, "Basic stuff." And she was like "I dunno what to teach you!" And that's how it went, ha. Although I believe the resort I'd be working at is on an American base, so I assume there would be a lot of Americans there (the thing also said learning German was unnecessary.) I'd still like to learn, though!

Actually, it was a different song with like this soaring women's choir part and percussions. It was very energetic, and the track from the soundtrack was like two and a half minutes long. I don't remember what it was called, though. "Komm, süßer Tod" (meaning "Come, Sweet Death," right?) Is an interesting song. The happiest suicide song ever! So, did any of that movie bother you? Because one time when we were eating at Taco Bell, all of the sudden I remembered Giant Naked Rei (Rai? all of the sudden, I've gotten a brain fart apparently) disintigrating, and I felt ill, heh.

So an interesting thing happened yesterday while I was working. I will explain in detail what's been going on. First of all, my brother gave me his script a while ago, and was like, "You're this character." And I thought, "cool." He didn't tell me when we were going to start filming, however, or what the schedule would be. A few weeks back, my friend invited me to go ice skating this Sunday, and a surprise birthday party for his wife the next night, and accepted. A couple days later, my brother told me we'd start filming that same Sunday, and I told him I couldn't. He said they'd do the parts without me that Sunday, and that I could start the next weekend. Well, last week on Friday, he told me that we were going to start that Sunday. Literally giving me two days to learn my part, where I thought I had two weeks (I would've started that week, but I worked every day, and didn't really have time to study it.) So I told him I couldn't do it that weekend, and I still couldn't do it the following weekend. So he asked me, "How about Saturday?" And I was like, "Sure."

Well, last night, he texted me, asking if we could do it Monday night instead. I had that party, so I told him I couldn't. So he threatened to recast my part in one text, and before I could respond, had decided to go ahead and do it in the next text. I complained that he kept on changing the schedule on me, and he said "I have to do it when the other actors can do it. One of them can't do it this Saturday. You want me to tell them you can't do it on Monday, too? That won't look good." And I said, "I told you I could do it Saturday. So I'm the only one who gets punished for this? Good luck finding someone else who fits the part as well as I do, and who can also learn it in a few days. I'll remember this." The next text from him was, "Can you do it this Tuesday?" and I was like, "Sure."

In any case, hope you have a good weekend! Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

You remember EVERYTHING, don't you? XD Yep, it was the same girl. And I actually couldn't care less at the moment. :3" There is enough happening outside of the forum, so... who cares? XD" Besides, she hasn't been online (at least in the forum!) for a couple of days now. Or - wait! - have you already taken her of her?! *___*

Wow~ 12 kids... that really is much! o_o I just know that waaay back in time it was quite normal to have so many kids. Now it's definitely not. ^^" Basically, most families over here are rather.. small. 1-2 kids is the normal amount of kids people have. .-."
Hah, my father'll soon do nothing anymore. He quit his job as a... dunno what it's called, I don't even know what he does. XD" I just know that he often has to travel to other countries and take care of costumers there. (He works at a company which sells and produces printing machines. I don't know if they're known in the US, but they're quite popular around the world. x3") But as I said, soon he'll not work there anymore. But I don't know what he'll do. First he'll have a good time, I suppose, staying at home, doing some work in and around the house. Such stuff. x3"
My mom'll also change her working place soon, but she'll do a similar work. x3" She just hasn't got much to do in her current job. She does... ehehe, something which contains taxes. ^^"" Helping others out and stuff... I really don't know anything about it, as I don't care about taxes much. xD" I just know that my mom can calculate how much money I'll get when I work. xD

No, I don't dislike him becauses he likes me. He's done some crazy things... I remember that I had an argument with him when I wrote the journal entry. But, honestly, I don't want to remember every detail. I just know that I dislike him because he's done so much wrong. Now that I think of it, I remember he once insulted my best friend... that's reason enough. XD"
Hehe, I know exactly what you mean.~ I also encourage people to do something to me so that I can feel better. Like provoking people just to let them know afterwards that I won't fight them because I feel like I'm better than them. (And I let them feel that.)

Nice, I learned something today. xP I didn't know that you can say "mother someone" ^^ There is a similar expression in German, I wouldn't have dared to translate that. xP But nice of you to think that this is cute. ^^" I actually find it rather annoying.
Hehe, I could just imagine that Germans are no fun. xP Especially because you won't be able to understand them. I could of course teach you some German before you come here, but you wouldn't be able to understand everything. And you're in Bavaria. So I should probably teach you Bavarian German XD
Okay, all serious again: Will there be many Americans?

Hehe, I just sign your paragraph about NGE. *signs* ^^
As for End of Evangelion, I don't like the song, but I think I know which one you mean. Perhaps you'd like to listen to it again, so here's the title: "Komm, süßer Tod" ^^ At least I THINK it was that song. I've seen End of Evangelion yeeeeears ago, so I don't remember every detail. I just remember everyone being so excited about that song I didn't really like at all. ^^" And I remember it was a German title. (As Asuka is also German x3") I hope I'm not mistaken. << >>

*looking at her e-mails*
Yay!!!! =D Something to read again! *happy*
(It's not that I haven't got anything to read... more precisely, I read every day. So far I'm at ~15.000 words each day. x.x" And - no, it's not homework for university. xD" I read stories of people on a site because I'm in a jury there. And one of our jury members can't do anything at the moment, so I know have to do her work. xD" It's not that bad, actually, but it's sooo~ much to read x..x" I wonder when I'll begin to dream about the 90.000 words story XD")

I see. So it's the same person on that forum who was bothering you before, eh? The one who doesn't do her job right, and such.I remember her, too, haha. Didn't you want Corporal Punishment to take care of her, or something? Good on you on making fun of her. You should also let it slip that Corporal Punishment is coming after her when she leasts expects it!

Yeah, my dad grew up in poverty a little bit. His father died when he was like five, or less. His oldest sibling was already married by the time he was born. There were twelve siblings, in fact, and he was the second youngest. My mom's family was also biggish-seven kids. I can imagine that many kids would be expensive, eh? And my dad was born in like '44, or some time around then. My mom was born almost ten years later. Actually, we were on the poor side when I was little. My parents were doing a lot better by the time I was in highschool, I think. My mom and dad went to college, I think, but they did like me; went to a community college, got an Associate's. What do your parents do? My dad was in janitorial all his life, and my mom did housekeeping.

Yeah, I read that. That was actually one of the ones I'd forgotten about (maybe because it was when I first started talking to you that I read that entry.) Maybe you hate him because he likes you, and that alone annoys you. Beyond that, because of this, you are more aware of his faults/more likely to be annoyed by something he says or does. But yeah; if someone wants to fight, I will fight back. In fact, if I get really angry with someone, I might encourage them to hit me; give me an excuse, eh?

You'd feel responsible for my health and well being-in other words, "mother" me-eh? That's cute ^^ Really, that makes me smile. You're such a sweet person. But I don't think you would have to worry about me too much; I made friends in Yellowstone. The problem with last time was that a lot of them kept quitting or getting fired, and I wasn't getting along with my friend from home. I think I will also try to go in with a different attitude about the whole thing. "I am going to have fun. I am not going to get homesick."

To me, Kaji was the most admirable male. He had it together, and wasn't a total prick. He even inevitably sacrificed himself for his mission-faced his death with a smile. And Misato was really awesome character, too, of course. I also really liked how much she cared about Shinji-she really seemed to try to reach out to all the kids-and she also was a tough, self-sufficient woman, which I always admire (as long as the girl is tough without being a bitch.) And, she was easy on the eyes, ha. Asuka wasn't so bad... except she was frequently an evil teenage girl, and definitely messed up (although given how she was brought up, one can hardly blame her for that, I suppose.) One of my favorite parts from End of Evangelion was when she started kicking the enemies' asses, and that exciting music started playing. It was like, "Hell yeah!" And really, Shinji didn't bother me too much, except for on a few occasions when he absolutely would not try, and just gave up. I empathize with him a lot more than I'd probably like to admit, heh.

Good luck with your homework, and writing that screenplay. I will see if I can actually find that screenplay... I have a feeling it might've been on the zip drive I lost. Either way, I will need to find it or get it from my brother in the next few days, so I will be e-mailing it to you. *thumbs up* Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

Talking to my friend indeed helped me much. :3 She said that she doesn't want me to leave her either, so I've some new power now. ^^ Besides, about the person bothering me... she doesn't bother me much. But she's also a mod in the forum, so that's quite a problem. <.<" Actually, that IS the problem. XD I've complained about her, that I don't like her working moral (she doesn't have one, to be exact). And after being forced to say everything that's on my mind I even told her that I don't like her. You can probably imagine how she reacted... she insulted me and then said that she was "so much more mature" than I am. XD As you see... I can laugh about it and I WILL make fun of her. xP It's getting better every day, so probably in a few days I'll have forgotten it. :3"

Hm. .-. I don't know if my parents ever had any problems concerning money. I'd rather say the generation of my grandparents had... quite many problems. (WWII and stuff XD") My parents both went to... college? Or even university, I don't know what you'd call it. So there was no need for money THAT badly. (As you don't earn any money while studying .-.")

Trust me, I don't really forget either. Have you read my second journal entry? About that guy going on my nerves because he was once in love with me? I saw him on the forum mentioned above today and he had edited his post and just written "Hehehe, I'm gonna edit this, just cautious ^___^ ". And I thought that he had surely written something stupid again. He always writes stupid things. -.- I don't know what he's done to me, I just know that I've written him into my Death Note (I've one at home - but as you see, it doesn't work XD). I hate him. But I don't know why. x.x It's just that I forget what people have done. It's easier to forgive them, of course, but I still know there was something.
Besides, if someone's trying to fight you.... fight him back! I don't care if you call that a "bad temper", but you shouldn't just let them win without any fight. <.<"

Hm, okay. .-. I hope it's different now. I don't want you to be unhappy over here. xD" I'd of course do my best to make you feel better, but I don't know how often we'd meet. I hope you won't be alone all week long. xD" (Have I ever mentioned that I feel responsible for everyone and everything? Be glad, your one of my victims *_*" If you were to come to Germany.. I'd probably feel responsible for you and your health and well-being. XD")

Hehe, my favorite characters are Misato, Asuka and Kaji. ^_^ Misato always had a cool look on her face (like <_<) and I liked how she grew to like Shinji more and more throughout the whole series. I also liked her relationship with Kaji. That was no romance, but a real love-story. It was nice to see how she really loved him but they just couldn't come together.... (And Kaji was just... fanservice for me <3 XD)
I don't know why so many people dislike Asuka. She was annoying sometimes, okay, but she had an interesting personality. Not only did she come from Germany (kehhe XD) but she was always determined to reach her aim all the time. She knew what she wanted to become and she tried so hard... though at the end she couldn't do it anymore. .-."
I also liked Shinji, and I didn't think he was that annoying. If you think about what he's gone through, it's only natural that he became a whiny person. ^^"
Also, I didn't like Rei. I appreciated her cool personality, but I didn't like her. (I didn't hate anyone either!)
You should definitely come to my place one time... I'm sure my beloved brother would like to talk to you about NGE. He's a huge fan of the series x3"

I didn't manage to do all my homework, but I'll do it tomorrow in university. I'll - again - have 2 ½ hours of free time in which I'll probably do all the homework that's left. I hope I'll manage to do so, at least. ^^" Then I'd have a real day off on Wednesday. >3 (Wednesday is my day to do all the homework, normally ^^)

I know this is a stupid request, but... may I read the script of your brother's new movie? <3 I'd also love to give you the script of our movie, but... ah, you know the basic problem. XD

Tomorrow I won't be here, just to let you know. <3 I've invited myself for dinner to my aunt. ^_^ My father wants to shoot a movie, too, y'know, about my uncle who's going to be 60 years old next year.~ So I have to investigate what the movie could be about. (I have to write the script, as usual XD")
So~ now I'm gonna go playing FFXII *_*

Well, I hope talking with your friend helped. At the same time, I will give you this advice: don't worry so much about stupid people on the internet. They are not worth the trouble. Don't even let them know that they are bothering you, because that will probably just encourage them to be even bigger douches (unless they're actually levelheaded/have some sense of accountability.) Just make fun of them, or something. Unless they are following you around in every thread to harrass you... in which case, you have the power to ban them, right? It's not worth losing your best friend over, by any means, I think.

Heh. See, I wonder if I would've taken that three hour job, in any case. Nah, I probably would've. They probably just needed an extra set of hands, or something. Now, the job I got called for that started at 4:45 AM... there was no way I was doing that, ha (I am not telling him about that one, obviously. I probably knew better about telling him about the other one, too.) It's a different generation. They grew up in a situation where money was very scarce, and they had to save every penny. Or at least my dad did; at one point, his family lived in a one room home, and all the kids slept in the same bed.

It would be a useful skill, just being able to forget about things, or at least not care about them the next day. But I always remember that crap. I'll see some TFFer who annoyed me with some comment post something else, and it will remind me of what they said to annoy me. Or I'll think about something I said or did that might have upset them, and I'll worry that they might still be upset with me, or some stupid crap like that. That also happens with people in real life, if I'm not seeing/talking to them on a daily basis (and in some cases, I could be talking to them on a regular basis.) Really wish I could stop it... and it's not even so much that I think they could beat me up, or anything; if they started yelling at me or tried to fight me, I'd probably step up and throw it right back at them (in real life, that is.) I actually have a pretty bad temper sometimes...

When you mention being separated from my mother... it makes me feel like a wuss, ha. But I dunno; it might be different now. It will be a different situation than Yellowstone; I was completely isolated to one small location there, with no transportation. I've also lived on my own for a year now, more or less, and don't see her every day anymore. And I'd be meeting you ^^

I actually hadn't watched all of evangelion until '07. I'd seen some episodes on Adult Swim, and thought it was weird and that the characters were annoying. Seeing it from the beginning put things more into perspective. So who's your favorite character? Mine is probably Misato or Haji. Asuka totally rubbed me the wrong way, Shinji was frequently annoying, although mostly sympathetic. Rei, I really felt sorry for in many ways. And everyone was really messed up, psychologically. Except Haji, and some of the minor characters. That's something that struck me the most; the way the characters struggled to communicate with each other. All of them. Also, the duel relationships between characters, like Misato and Ritsuko: the friends from college that socialized together, the professional side that often showed Ritsuko scolding Misato for being late or some other thing, and the times when they were opposing each other, and Misato would demand info from Ritsuko, and even slapped her hard across the face at one point.

Well, hope you got all your homework done, young lady! Hope everything's going well for you. My brother has started filming his new movie this weekend, and I'm going to start next Saturday. I haven't read the script in months, so that is what I will probably be doing with my time, ha (I thought I was starting two weeks from now... apparently, he bumped up the dates on me. I could've done it this weekend, but he dropped it on me that he was starting on Sunday... on Friday.) Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

Yesterday evening I talked to my mother about the problem I have. She couldn't help me that much, but again she told me something that was stuck on my mind since Tuesday: "If you're not comfortable with that anymore... just quit." But quitting would mean that I'd lose my best friend and my place to go to talk about Anime. xD" I've grown used to that place. .-." And I certainly don't want to lose my best friend... I fear we wouldn't talk that much anymore if we were seperated... I should probably talk about that with my best friend.. xD" I'm gonna write her right away :/
Okay~ I wrote the message... hopefully she can help me X.x

Gosh, your father's just like mine. -.- How annoying... I hate such situations. <_<" You try to be with your family and enjoy the time with them and your father doesn't appreciate that but just thinks about work. -.- My father's like that, too. When my brother decided he wouldn't work for a firm anymore he was also like "He could've still worked for a week, but he quit. Oh dear!" -.- I just don't get what you did wrong. ôo Being with your family is way more important than going to work - at least in my opinion.

I really should try to practice an evil grin. *_* Would surely be nice to have.~ *hehe*
You're memory's frightening. XD" I really had to think about it for a while until I finally knew what you meant by the guy I scared so much that he became a gentleman... You mean Stupid, the guy I worked with a while ago. I've already forgotten about him. XD"
(It's always nice to think about that. I like how all my problems just fade away after a while. I'll probably laugh about the problems I have at the moment in a week's time XD)

I can't wait to hear how it turns out. *_* I'm also excited~ I hope you'll get that job. :3 (Though... wouldn't it be as sad as when you were at Yellowstone? .-." I mean, you have to seperate from your mother again... .,.")

Of course I've watched Evangelion << >> Who hasn't? It was one of my first Anime and I decided to watch the whole series again this year. It's just awesome >//< One of the best Anime indeed!

I don't really know what I could tell you... And somehow I feel like doing my homework now. O.o" I got a book I have to work with yesterday, so I guess I'll do that now, as I'm willing to. XD
Aaand my mother told me that there were small fish in our aquarium *_* I've to see them. XD

That's good that you're feeling better. Dwelling on silly things can lead to obsessing over silly things... I know. And eh; I always have a sore throat. Ever since the first time I went to Yellowstone, I frequently have a sore throat. It's irritating. I probably should've had my tonsils removed, but I was afraid, and the doctor told me I might "grow out of it." Now it's too late; not on my parents' insurance anymore. So if I never worked when my throat was sore... I'd probably be out half my life, heh. Thankee for the well wishes! The funny thing is, I got called for a few hour shift today, but I turned it down because my family is getting together today. I mentioned it in front of my parents, and my dad was all like, "He could've worked, but he turned it down. Oh dear." He went on like that for a little while. Like I am struggling to support myself right now. It annoyed me.

Heh. Freya is intimidating when she's angry. I think that's pretty awesome. You scared that one guy who was being a jerk into being a gentleman, I remember. You should totally practice an evil grin! It'd be even more awesome.

Snobbish is indeed a word. *thumbs up* And I will let you know if they ask me any questions about Germany. I wasn't really expecting them to, but you never know, eh? And that's cool that it's right near where you live I will definitely keep you posted on how things go. I am really hoping for it, right now. It'd be so cool to go over there and meet you.

It's okay, ma'am. I understand. Siblings are important. My sibling will be down with his family today. I need to pay him for my cell phone... (I'm on his plan. $15 a month, with unlimited texting! Yiy!)

Boy, it sure is coming down out there, today. Yesterday at work, I walked straight through the playground area to my next location instead of just walking underneath the coverings, and I immediately thought, "Oh yeah. This was a good idea." Yeah, my life is uninteresting right now... went and saw "The Men Who Stare At Goats" last night. I know you don't watch movies often, but it was pretty quirky and funny-just my kind of movie! And there was hardly any violence, and no sexual stuff at all (although I guess there were some topless women, come to think of it... and there was swearing.) Still, I think my mom might actually be able to enjoy a movie I enjoyed, which is a rarity lately. Maybe you should see it. Btw... you ever seen Evangelion? Love that show, was just thinking about it again.

Have a good weekend with your bro! Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

Hah, guess what... I've already forgotten about the incident of Tuesday. x3" So no need to worry about me anymore, everything's alright.~ ^^
Wait - you were ill and yet you went to work? ôo Y'know, that's not good for your health... (says the person who always goes to school/university when ill XD") Hope you feel better today. Try to rest at the weekend, please .-."

You're just like me. ^^" I'm also the person who doesn't talk that much and just works. My mother told me that this would lead to several problems. Though when I'm angry I show it (unconsciously). When I worked in summer a few months ago everyone knew when I was angry and they knew that they shouldn't talk to me in that state.

Oh gosh, I just told my brother I only needed 5 more minutes for this VM... DAMN!!! XD And then I read this. And I have to say so much about that topic. <_<"
Okay, here's the short version (actually I'm not able to make anything short, but anyways xD): When I was 16 I said the exact same thing. xP I said that I hated the youth and that they all were spoiled brats and stuff. XD So acutally, I did what I now despise.. ^^" Then I realized that I was part of the youth... and after a few years I realized that the youth wasn't as bad as I thought it was - just because they were exactly as we were. .-. (If you see any mistake in my logic... it's not my fault. I listen to my brother who's talking German and I try to write English .-.""")

That's why I mentioned "Oxford English" (ever heard it? XD"). It's the worst kind of language I've ever heard. Perhaps I could even say it's "snobbish". (I heard that word in an English course from a student, I hope it actually exists xD)

Yay~ Garmisch-Partenkirchen is... well, not next door to my village, but it's quite near. :3 (And it's not Berlin, yay! xD")
Will they ask you anything about Germany? Feel free to ask me anything about that country, I suppose I'll know much.
And keep me on track about their answers, please

So, now I have to concentrate on my brother. He's only there this weekend, so sorry, my dear, he's my top priority today. ;3
Hope you had a good day... or will have a good day... dunno what time it is in the US now. XD" (It's 7.30 pm over here x3")

Sounds like that guy is an idiot, eh? Heh. Glad to hear you're feeling better after the past two days. My throat is still annoying, but no worse than yesterday, and I think I'm better rested than yesterday, which was undoubtedly a factor. I wanted to stay home and rest today, but the guy I'm covering for pretty much told me he needed me, so...

I suppose those two old men aren't really that old; they're both in their mid to late fifties. That's still three decades older than me, but still. They liked me, at least. Sure, they'd get annoyed with me a lot, but at the end of the day, I suppose they have each other to be angry at, ha. In the words of one of them, I keep to myself, don't talk too much, and just work." I guess it's hard to tell when I'm annoyed or angry because of that.

It's not just old people who think the generation younger than them are worthless, though; every generation thinks this way. The younger generation is lazier/more stupid/more whatever than they were, or are. Everybody else sucks, and they're perfect, heh. People tend to lack sympathy and patience, don't you think?

British English is rather sophisticated, isn't it? I dunno, though; if you listen to The Clash or the Beatles, they don't sound to sophisticated. It's the upper class people who sound too sophisticated. They try to make their speech all flowery with an uncommon vocabulary. People from the US do that, too.

I gotsta go. I'll try to remember to write more tonight. G'night, lady! Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom

EDIT: Back! Yeah, it sounds like it's in the Bavarian Alps, in the Garmisch-Partenkirchen area. I wonder how long it takes for them to get mail from here... I sent the thing last Friday. And then they probably don't get to it for another several days... hopefully they will before it comes time for the interviews!

Good luck to you with not having to buy a bunch of expensive books. Thank you for your well wishes. I think might feel a little bit better, although then again... *shrug* can't tell too much of a difference. Good morning, now! (and goodnight for me.)

I didn't write about it in my journal. I didn't feel like it, really. It's been quite a damage that happened on Tuesday evening, but I think I'm better now. x3~ I loooove to rest a night and then kind of forget it all. <3 I'm still mad at the guy who this all was about, but I don't really care that much anymore. Yesterday I woke up and thought about him, that was awful. X.x But today I woke up and... ah, well, I guess I'll write that goddamn PM after writing this VM. xD" (It's... personal. Too much information about myself and... stuff. You'll see XD)

Why the heck did you have to work with two old men? XD""" That sounds like an awful work. <_<" Don't get me wrong, I don't hate old people, but I've met so many that are sooo~ stupid. <_<""" (When I was in hospital a year ago there was a damn old woman in the bed next to me who even dared to tell me that she disliked the youth and thought that we'd never change anything. -.-)

Hehe, I like my mom, I like her really much, but she can't help me with English and Math - though I found an old school book of her which contains everything I want to learn. <3 (And also some books about American culture and such x3")
You might be shocked by what I'll say now, but... I hate British English. XD" If anyone speaks proper "Oxford English", that'd be scary. .-." And I'd hate that person. ^^" Also I don't like people who talk proper German. xD" I like American English more. :3" It sounds like a language people actually talk. British English sounds way too.. sophisticated, in a way. XD"

Do you already know where exactly in Germany you'll be then? :3 (Haven't I asked that before? <.<" I'm not sure~) If you can choose... *cough* Choose Bavaria. Somewhere near Munich. XD It's Bavaria, damnit! The very best place in Germany. <3 (And basically where I live... but I wouldn't want you to have to be in Berlin <_<""")
You have to tell me on which day you'll have the interview. I'll cheer for you over here! =D

Yep, that's what I wanted to do, actually. Buy a cheap book from another student and then sell it to a student. x3" But I've only bought one book so far. It wasn't THAT expensive, but it wasn't that cheap either. xD" I hope there won't be too many books I have to buy. ^^" (Though I still have enough money. .-.")

You don't have to be sorry if you didn't write as much as I did. (It's quite normal, actually. Women tend to talk more than men xP) Besides, if you've caught a cold you should rest. .-." I'm always happy that you answer my VMs that fast, but you don't have to, really. .,.
I you won't listen to me, I think I have to come over to your place and care for you. xP

Hope you feel better already and didn't catch a cold. .-." (Perhaps it was just a dream! XD *stupid Freya*)

Yeah, I suppose sometimes it's best not to talk, eh? I had a lot of those days during the summer, getting up in the damn and working with two grumpy old men who didn't like each other, and who I was also frequently annoyed with. All you really want to say is "Shut up. Shut up. Shut up." or "F you." Well, I hope that stuff gets straightened out for you, sooner than later. I suppose I will have to check to see if you wrote about it in your journal after this.

Yeah, I suppose that would be an annoying situation, trying to learn with your parents. Particularly your father. I always try to get my mom to help me with stuff, so that's why I made the suggestion. And a lot of times, she's like, "I dunno! Why would I know?" Ha. Well, gersh dernit, lady! There's probably not too many native English speakers around there, is there? I will have to get that job and come over to you ^^ and help you learn some english! (Although it will be US english, which is not proper english!) In any case, they'll be recruiting this month, so if I have an interview, it will be this month.

Yup. So soon, you will experience the joy of buying books for like $100, and selling them back for $15-30. Or are you gonna keep your books and reread them? Although it's more practical to sell them back. Probably better to sell them directly to a student; more profit for you, and less expensive for them.

Yeah, I remember odd details, and forget others. Selective memory? Except I have no idea how it works, sometimes... and uh oh! Don't give into temptation! Eat your veggies instead! ...nah, I ate a bunch of candy, too. And ate out like three times, and drank a bit of soda. It probably won't be that bad for you. Unless it's all you ate...

Gosh, I am feeling a little scatter-brained today. Starting to get a cold. Woke up in the middle of the night with a lot of junk in my mouth and an itchy/sore throat, and it's graduated to a nagging throat. I've been working the past couple days, too, and I'm working today, so that probably contributes a little bit. Sorry if I seem kinda "Buuuuhh..." and this response is short by comparison to what you wrote.

Feel better! I will try to do the same. Anyhoo...

Wuv, Yer Mom