12/2/05
I'm tired today. Really tired. Basically because I was up til like 3am last night. Or something like that, I don't even remember now. My painkillers made me hillucinate, so I kept imaging these shadows, and then these images got violent and too much for me to handle in my sleepy state. So here I am, tired, bored shitless and hoping my family will go away for a while. Listening to KoRn and Megadeth. Nothing -completely- new though. I'm getting ill. Not in literal. Just, in my mind. My mind grows tired. I need something new to grasp in life. It's quite lonely for me. Sure, I've got my family. I have no real life friends though. No buddies that can come over so we can hang out. Stan called me up yesterday and that was nice coz we usually talk for hours, but sometimes I get so depressed that I can't hang with my friends. I used to have two real life friends. Dan, whom I havent seen in about two years. And Syn, wose sick lately and we havent seen each other since about November last year. I guess my life is pretty much a massive routine that starts again every time I wake up. Hoping to go up North next year to meet my boyfriend. Looking forward to that, but I still need to rent or lend a motorbike. I'm now yawning real loads. I mean, my jaw is killing me coz I sprain it a lot. And my throat inside is burning like ****! Need juice... Havent seen my boyfriend in MSN today, so I'm feeling completely down about that. I think I was made to be alone or something... I wouldnt know, but I hope not. Anyway. I should probably stop here coz I'm getting bored of venting uninteresting details about myself to people that probably dont even care... ^_^;;;......... maybe write something tomorrow.
